“Whoever does not bear his own cross and come after me cannot be my disciple.” Luke 14:27 When I first decided that I was going to take steps towards working in some form of vocational ministry - the biggest thing stopping me was knowing how hard it was going to be. I was terrified. What if it simply costs too much? What if I was giving up the life I actually wanted? What if I regret it? What if it’s too hard? I still have those questions and perhaps I’ll never stop havi

"For I am doing a work in your time that you would not believe if told" Habbukuk 1:5 I have gotten myself into a pattern of trying to tell God what to do next in my life. Guess how that works out for me - spoiler alert, it's a low success rate. I'd love to say that I've learned my lesson, but unfortunately that pattern has deep roots. However the more times I experience the goodness and mercy of the Lord in a new way, the more I realize that He is the only One with an accura

"For I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:29 I am so quick to diagnosis what sin is. It should be self-explaintory right? Whatever is black and white defined as wrong, right? But then there is this character named pride who loves to throw a wretch in our plans. Pride has this sneaky tendency to disguise itself as something that is all fine and sweet. For so long, I was blind to pride in my life. I thought if I was good at somethin

"And he went out not knowing where he was going." Hebrews 11:18 I am incredibly guilty of telling God how to define faith. I often bargain, plea, and beg for him to coordinate details to mirror the map I have marked in my head. I will give Him spreadsheets, deadlines, scrapbooks, and credit statements to show Him what is going to work best for my life. Yet I also try to tell Him I have faith. I believe that today we often settle for an abbreviated version of faith. We claim